While photos indicated physical changes, the scale gave me a heart fuck you every time I stepped on it. I had given up bread, sweets, fried foods, and I was going hard at the gym. I was clearing 10,000 steps every day. And nothing was budging.
I cried to my nutritionist. I cried to my trainer. I cried to my friends. I cried at the literal most inappropriate times and places. I went to my therapist and said “I think I’m depressed.” When she asked why I listed my symptoms
- Crying like a bitch ass bitch 24/7
- Mood swings like woah
- Crying like a bitch ass bitch
I listed crying twice because I’m just not a crying person. I’ve never been overly emotional since I had a soulectomy around the time I started paying my student loans. She then said something groundbreaking to me
Have you had your thyroid checked.
Well, no I had not. It turns out insomnia, being overweight/weight gain, and being a fucking crysack are all thyroid issue symptoms. And groundbreakingly enough
I have hypothyroidism. And PCOS. Which means 2 things.
1. I’m no bitch. 2. Medicine can regulate these issues.
Turns out due to PCOS, my body digests carbs/sugars like a diabetic. And my low thyroid helps no one, least of all my metabolism. I was put on a medication for my thyroid and metformin for PCOS and a month later I’m finally 10lbs lighter.
For those of you dickbags who want to say thyroid is an excuse you can go talk to my nutritionist, and she’ll tell you I was legit working hard and eating right for very little gain. It’s not impossible, but it’s a lot fuckin easier when your body is on your team.
Trust me, I know when you want to lose a total of 65lbs, who cares about 10? But I am now only 55lbs from my goal and it feels so goddamn good. I finally feel like I’m not a fraud when I come to this blog.
Which means, I’m legitimately going to keep up with this shit once and for all. I even bought the domain name so I’m pretty fucking official.
Can’t wait until the day when we all celebrate my goal weight. Designer handbags for everyone! (Jk I’m not rich)